Spewing Nonsensical Bullcrap

People tend to play different roles depending on the people they're around or the circumstances they are in.
Duh.

Ex. Siblingsthink I'm an immature baby and when they're asked if they know anyone for me, the bastard that is my brother yells, Why is she dating! She's not ready to get married!
Point taken, ahole brother, but does the entire state of Jersey have to hear your opinion on every f-in thing that you deem to be fact.
I know why it pissed me off so much. He's probably right.

I'll be 35 years old, imbued with multiple responsibilities (hopefully) and I'll still be the immature baby.

With my friends, I'm the brooding, pissed off, holier than thou, anti-social soul - a role I uphold, and take to very strongly.

To others;acquaintances and the general dipshit population, I am perceived to be immature and mindless, (echoing my brother's glowing opinion of me).

This all seems quite interesting, I'm sure.. but why must I state the obvious, folks?
Because Dating is a SHAM.
It's a load of hooey.
A non-paying acting job.

I act happy, I sound well-spoken, and appear even slightly elitist.
It's joyful. Really.

Buncha crapass fakeness

The wonderful mood I'm in, might have everything to do with the wonderful change of plans and the general downward spiral my life has taken.


God is really forsaking me this time... I got it. I'm a bad Jew.

But really God, some help here.

And get the decent Irish Catholic boy outta my life please. He's making it too complicated for me to handle.