In 2 weeks, itt'l all be over
My semester has been interesting.
I've seen three of my friends get married. All very happy.
I've seen two of my friends fall into bad habits. Drinking, smoking (the good stuff) , random piercings, therapists, random drugs.
I've lost a friend or two.
And me? I've become pretty self reliant. Sure life is a drag, but me and my wonderful attitude will get through it all somehow.
I'm graduating in a year and I'm planning on moving to Israel for 5 months before grad school. I don't have anything planned. But I want to grow up a bit.
College hasn't done it for me.
My retired parents sure as hell aren't helping with that.
I want to learn conversational Hebrew.
I want to marry an Israeli. *gasp*
I want to disappear
and start over.
posted by Lost @ 11:27 AM
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5 Comments:
hey, first time visitor
nice blog.
are you realy in your twenties?
I was reading your posts...and couldnt help but wonder why youre in such a hurry?
take a deep breath girl. youre so freking young.
I got married at the age of 17 1/2. believe me you wouldnt wanna switch places with me. I wish I can be a teen again, and live a carefree, pressure free life again.
oh well...
I guess you should just appreciate what you have.
hey, I think its wrong to measure a persons values, and worthiness in accordance to how many kids they have or wether theyre married or not. I know that its the mentality of todays society, but its so wrong.
these details dont make you into a better person.
its who you are that counts, and not the amount of babies you pop and etc.
You cant run away. Grad school is a new start in itself. Israel isnt a magic growing up place either. A change of scenery does help though. (How do you know you want to marry an israeli?)
1Beautiful Stranger,
Thanks for the kind comments! It's funny though. I'm not really rushing off to get married, and I know I won't be any better of a human being if I am hitched. But I do feel it'sa hurdle I have to get over, and asap. I have friends who are 'older' and single in NY, and trust, they are NOT depressed by any means. They are simply sitting. and waiting. and dreaming that someone will think of them and set them up.
I don't want to be married, but I do want to be proactive enough to make it happen for myself.
Thanks for the encouragement though.
CD- I am shutting my eyes to the running away part, I just need some sort of out body experience, and Israel is the place to do it. Grad School will happen, Jobs will happen, Marriage will happen, but Israel haaas to happen. Never did it, but at this point in my life I know I would gain.
As for the Israeli bit, It's just the premonition I have. I'll let you know if it works out.
g'luck. I never did it either, I would gain too but its just not always in the cards. good for you.
beautifulstranger....
you know its like right after you get married..and you're not getting pregnant for a few months...Its not that you're in a rush to have a baby, on the contrary it would be nice to have a few years just the 2 of you, you just want to know that you will have a baby.
I think thats what our friend Lost here is feeling..to be able to look into the fututre and see that all will be well...then enjoy her carefree years..
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